What should I spend my free time with?
idk man, give me suggestions
Cmd + t. “r”. enter. reddit.com. Scroll down. Get bored. Cmd + t. “y”. youtube.com. Scroll down. Get bored. Cmd + t. “x”. x.com. Scroll down. Post a couple things. Peeps having meh hot takes or wanting to get engagement. Get bored.
Alternatively, open game. Spend 20 hours. Realize it’s 4 am and I’ve fucked my sleep schedule. Feel regret and guilt. Do it again. Repeat.
Begin a new series or film or book. Begin watching/reading. See above. Continue.
Ok, why not do work? Sure. Do the literature review, criticize, set up experiment, run experiments, send a couple messages, have a conversation. Do this for months until burnout vibes. Not the best, it’s already my main job.
Climbing? Gym? Running? Pretty good, endorphins, get buff. Nothing else to say really, they’re pretty good. Meditative. Read “What I talk about when I talk about running” by Murakami. Basically the only thing I’ve read from him and I like it.
Sex? BDSM? Sure, they’re nice. More intricate shibari, very cool. Looks like an art piece, nice. Or giving people pain, or controlling them, can be fun if done with the right people. Oh, the peeps you’re usually doing this with are in Brazil or Japan today. Hmm. Guess I’ll wait. Also can get much/boring at some point.
Drawing, making music, crochet. Pretty nice, generally enjoyable, quite a hassle.
Hanging with peeps, especially if physical stuff involved (giving them pain or scratches or cuddles). See the Sex/BDSM line.
Hanging with peeps, psychological/intellectual conversation? Can be fun, good banter, in-depth disagreements, debates, and discussions. But man, AI safety theory discussions are always so much of the same old same old, my eyes just roll over fall off and go into the river.
Claude Code’ing and automating various aspects of my life or going through in-depth enough investigations through primary and secondary sources. Pretty decent and fun, would recommend, but can get a bit much still. Can also feel a bit fake in the productivity boost aspect, gotta be careful.
Therapy is pretty decent, do it with your Claude with skepticism or with a good therapist with skepticism. Grieve it all out.
Sleep as a source of dream seeking, rather than necessarily just as a rejuvenation mechanism. Pretty decent, need to relearn how to lucid dream. Control your dreams, why not.
See the world, can be fun, idk.
I guess for me the crux is finding the real people I strongly vibe with. Often I’ll find such people and outright tell them “I like your vibe and know we’ll be good friends” and this will be proven correct, especially thanks to my initial time and effort investment. That’s what I try to optimize. Particular people that really scratch various itches and I scratch theirs back. It’s why I still think of myself as an introvert despite what others say about my extraversion, I’m just really good at perusing through people. I think.
A handful of really close people to me. Optimized. Yet, I still sometimes fear when they interact with each other. The systems interacting. What if it doesn’t go well? I think it’s fine.