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8 AM. I wake up. Eyes dry, sense of annoyance, need to get my pills for the day. Random chance whether I’ll take them, let’s say I do. Feels cold. It’s warm in the bed under the duvet. Don’t want to get out.
10 AM. I randomly wake up again. Oh good it’s just 10 AM. Don’t need to worry about it. In fact, I could stay a little more inside.
12 PM. 1PM. Oh no, the day is passing away. Better get up? But first, some YouTube perhaps, after all, I just woke up.
2PM. 3PM. Spent a lot of time on YouTube. Hey, at least it was funny or interesting right? Something learned, or at least nerves calmed.
4 PM. I really should get out of the house as soon as possible. The day is slipping away. What have I done with it? But why is there this sense of anxiety still? Background anxiety. Better look at the small screen again. Daylight outside? It might turn into sunset soon, a day utterly wasted, would be very concerning. Better look back at those moving lights. The soothing sounds. Watch it dance, watch it dance. It calls for you. Otherwise you might dislike how you did this or that back in the day. Why didn’t you do otherwise? Pathetic. You could’ve been better. You could’ve done so much more. Time is running out. Year is running out. 2026 already. Back to the screen, watch it, watch it.
5 PM. I hate it. I hate it so much. What is there to do. Get yourself out of there. Listen to some music that pumps you up. Have some person doing the funnies in the background or talk about the Roman Empire. That will soothe your mind. Because otherwise it’s your fault. It’s always your fault. It could’ve been this or that. You could’ve used this day so much better. A waste. A waste. Should have slept earlier. You could have prevented this. Watch the YouTube. Soothe your mind.
6 PM. Out of the house, walking now. Roman Empire in the background. Otherwise you’ll be thinking, we cannot have that. Remember it gives you pain. You can only think if there’s other people are around at a restaurant or cafe. You can only think when you feel like you’re not being competed with. Otherwise you’re reminded. You’re reminded, you utter failure. The world is falling apart, timelines are shortening, and what are you doing? Roman Empire? You fall back to ancient times because they have no effect. Escapism masked as education to not repeat future mistakes. A comfort blanket. Need to play it again. Let’s listen to it again.
7 PM. At the friend’s place. Chatting about whatever. Mind continues to be soothed. Heck, might even talk about the work or the doom. Who knows. Chat chat chat. At least you feel human again. You only feel human again once you’ve had your sip of human talk, don’t you. You’re so broken aren’t you? See a therapist you dumb fuck.
11 PM. Spent so much time with friends doing this and that. Congratulations. Time to go back home. Listen to your Roman Empire. Or not, maybe you’ve been soothed enough. Don’t worry, it doesn’t matter, you’ll need all that soothing up tomorrow morning. Or maybe not. It’s random isn’t it? Well, notwithstanding your own sleep schedule. Sleeping at 4 AM and expecting to get up at 8 AM. What a joke. Repeat the cycle why don’t you. Only takes an interesting conversation or interesting work task or interesting party and boom, back to the start, 4 AM. Repeat it again. You have a soothed mind now, it’s your only opportunity. Time is ticking.
8 AM. I wake up.