I think it was closest to feeling like a different person, a new person. Being something completely new. The raw sense of just existing, being pure and curious. It didn't feel that peaceful or free; there weren't narratives flying around my head that day. It's more that the concepts weren't in my head to even refer to, the symbols were there but little semantics.
I don't know how to describe the beauty or how good it felt. It's the experience of the absence of everything. Childlike innocence maybe feels like an alright description, but still falls short. I'll continue thinking about a way to describe it and will report back.
> It’s also one of the best experiences I ever had in my life.
What felt good about the experience? The freedom? The cessation of unhealthy narratives? The peace? something else?
From your line "A full reset. When I do try to actually do it, it feels odd" above, I didn't expect the true full reset to feel good!
I think it was closest to feeling like a different person, a new person. Being something completely new. The raw sense of just existing, being pure and curious. It didn't feel that peaceful or free; there weren't narratives flying around my head that day. It's more that the concepts weren't in my head to even refer to, the symbols were there but little semantics.
I don't know how to describe the beauty or how good it felt. It's the experience of the absence of everything. Childlike innocence maybe feels like an alright description, but still falls short. I'll continue thinking about a way to describe it and will report back.